sikiit lagi yer...

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since my last post, terus jadi lipas kudung kat ofis...the moment i arrive at the office at 7am, terus buat keje...and i have to stayback as late as until maghrib throughout the week...haaa...more than 12 hours duk office...Alhamdulillah semua dah setel yesterday...and this will be my final week working...jumaat nih nak claim my unrecorded leave sebelum boss terlupa...then next week mc terus sampai aku bersalin...tak larat dah nak travel pegi balik ofis...nih pun this week i request cikgu hantar ngan keta pegi keje...sakit sendi, tulang2 semua nak naik motor...yup, haritu duk naik moto lagi sebab convenient and cepat...tapi tensionlaa cikgu coz kejap2 aku bising bila dia terlanggar lubang, bumper...actually biasanya takde hal setakat langgar sesikit tuh tapi sebab baby dah getting low and pelvic aku dah mula rasa sakit sangat bila terhentak tu yang sensitif sket...takpe, sikiit je lagi nak ulang alik keje...

i planned to do some shopping for the baby...ada sesikit lg nk kena beli like new towels, diapers, blanket, wipes, toilettries, my set berpantang, etc...and then nak kemas bilik nak confine later...nak basuh langsir, vakum, sort out the kids toys, nak kemas almari baju the kids to make space for the baby's clothes...baby's clothes tak banyak beli baru pun coz baju abg kakak banyak yang elok2 lagi...hopefully i have the energy to do all that...initially we planned to go to ikea this friday after cikgu came back from solat jumaat to buy new bed coz we wanna train the kids to sleep on their own (too late, i know *roll eyes*) but the other day walking back/from avenue k-my office which is only 2 blocks away pun dah semput n sakit2, so lupakan jelaa...we have been trying to separate the kids from me for a few nights now but my husband would look like panda the next morning saying the kids wake up like every hour crying...kalau tido skali memang diorang macam tido pengsan siap tendang2 kita...but bila takde they can sense our body heat agaknya...huhuhu...especially mikhail coz he is so used to sleep while i hug him...manja sangat dia tuh since baby coz dia kan bf to sleep until just recently bila aku dah pregnant 4-5 months...

he still being clueless when i point to my tummy and say baby...he would say peyut...becaunyerrr...hahaha...yes, i know that mikhail...but he didnt show any jealousy yet when i carry other babies...he would say baby, comelnyerr...now whenever he talks memang akan ada perkataan "nyerrr" kat belakang...ariana pulak bila kita cakap nnti dah ada baby yana kena tido sendiri k...mommy ada kat bilik sebelah jer...she said ok but she want doc mcstuffin's bed...bed mana nak carik, kalau bedsheet boleh gak usahakan...

lrt problem ker?

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Can anybody tell me whats wrong with the lrt yesterday evening? my office hour ends at 6.15pm...im going back home at 6.20pm...dahlaa kita nih jalan macam siput...by 6.30pm sampai lrt ampag park nampak orang yang beratur menghala ke gombak punyalaa ramai...so i sat at the bench for a while when i see a colleague also sitting there...tak larat weyh nak beratur berdiri lama2...borak2 jap pastu after 10 minutes tengok line still panjang...takleh jadi nih...so i started queuing as well...all the train that arrive either fully packed takde sapa keluar or dapat masuk sorag dua jer...about more than 10 train kot yang terlepas...7.10pm camtuh baru dapat masuk...itupun the pakcik kat pintu tu memula macam taknak bergerak but when he sees my big tummy, dia squeeze me in jugak...tak kisahlaa...im concern about my husband with the kids yang dah lama tunggu kat lrt tmn melati tuh...diorang usually by 6.30pm dah sampai sana...dahlaa i dont have my fon with me...and my colleague tuh taktau pegi mana masa beratur...kalau tak bolehlaa pinjam fon dia inform my husband...

dalam lrt yang pack, memang tak berharaplaa nak dapat seat as the one nak offer seat pun takleh nak bangun...sampai setiawangsa baru dapat duduk...as soon the kids saw me approaching the car, ariana dah start membebel...it was 7.25pm camtuh masa tuh...nape mommy lambat? yana nak terkencing nih, adik dah few times mintak susu...tetiba aku nak marah2 cakap lenkali no need to wait for mommy...biarlaa mommy balik sendiri merangkak pun takpe...hahaha...emo pulak mak buyung nih...pastu bergenang jer mata, rasa sedih sangat and penat...sakit pinggang apa semua adalaa...my husband memula nak membebel jugak tapi tak jadi bila tengok aku macam tuh...he said lets buy a cheap fon at least he cud still contact me...he's just worried sebab lately memang aku nampak dah tak larat sangat...jalan sikit dah sakit2...my tummy selalu cramp...dia ingat aku dah gi hospital...he even called my fren N asking my whereabouts...hehehe...but i refused...i said in few days dapatlaa fon tuh...takyahlaa membazir...and this morning my fren A lend me her extra fon until i get mine :) Alhamdulillah...but still, my husband said he will fetch me at the office today and tomorrow...yippee...memang itu yang aku nak sebenarnya tapi tak sampai hati nak cakap...yelaa...dia pun penat balik keje, nak kena patah2 balik nak amik aku pulak...tapi orang dah offer, aku terima jelaa...hehehe

kalau dia boleh teruskan amik balik keje sampai bersalin lagi ok, hehehe (how i wish he read my blog right now)...workwise, i can do my work sebab duduk key in je pun...yang tak laratnyer nak commute pegi balik keje tuh...heck, nak pegi printer pun tunggu print banyak2 baru gi amik skaligus...nak amik mc awal pun takleh, keje tengah banyak until its duedate dalam friday next week...huwaa...after that we'll see laa eh...kalau tak larat sangat memang mc awallaa until bersalin...

My 6th pregnancy with 3rd child

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pregnant kali nih tak banyak bercerita except pasal checkup and all the tests that need to go thru...Alhamdulillah BSP test haritu dapat result yang cantik...jenuh jaga makan ok...no sweet drinks, desserts at all...by petang rasa macam nak pengsan nak mengamuk pun ada bukan pasal hypo tapi sebab tak biasa...hehehe...and lepas2 tuh amik kesempatan pulak makan jer apa nak...konon harituh kata nak berkorban taknak makan manis sampai baby lahir...cehh...tapi3, to my defense now i drink more water than i used to...minuman manis ok lagi boleh tahan...takdelaa like previous pregnancy, asek mintak cikgu belikan air sedap memanjang...now kalau ada kita minum...kalau takde, pun takpe...pagi memang amik air sedap for breakfast...be it milo or oats or nescafe or kopi o kaw...tapi mostly milolaa...tgahri minum air kosong kalau tapau food...kalau lunch luar memang order airlaa...petang makan roti bun ke apa...with plain water jer...malam pun plain water...once a while bila terasa nak benda manis, memang ada spare gula2 dalam beg...nurse pun bagitau dalam beg kena ada gula2 coz some pregnant mommies tend to get hypo...

now im at my 34th weeks...kalau ikutkan my due date will be on 12th September but since i will be delivering my baby most probably via c-section, i have chosen 1st September...so yeah, less than a month lagi nak jumpa our baby...im sorting and completing my pending task at the office now...haruslaa tinggalkan ofis selama 2 bulan dalam keadaan selesa...i mean selesa for others that will be take over my work...biar diorang relief dengan happy...documents semua complete dan teratur, takde problem and most important tak menyusahkan orang...i have done my filing so semua yang ada dah up to date...keje bebaik yer...anything can just call me 9-6...hehehe

kalau ikutkan rasa macam nak bersalin sekarang jer...thats becoz the baby are getting heavier day by day...bukan heavy in terms of weight, bila timbang tak naik banyak pun...so far baby baru 2kg+ and i only gain about 4 kg throughout my pregnancy so far...but the baby's position dah sangat low...some think that im due already...and becoz im carrying the baby low, my pelvic muscle, pinggang, bawah perut semua terasa sakit everytime i move...solat pun dah duduk jer sekarang...nak move from my workstation to printer pun slow ya amat...pastu baby adalah sangat3 active especially kalau aku minum kopi or nescafe...senak ok...rasa macam kena tumbuk dari dalam...my tummy always show odd shapes...kadang nampak macam 4 segi, maybe tapak kaki kot...kadang tajam jer bulat kecik...tu penumbuk dia kot...and kalau dia move, bukanlaa subtle yer...skali dia jek, 3 penjuru senak...kemain menggeliat lagi dia...faktor usia jugak kot...dulu pregnant late 20s and early 30s masih bertenaga boleh shopping lagi last minute...now kalau weekend full of open house invitations pun i only manage to go to 2 to 3 houses jer...kalau lasak sangat memang isnin tuh flat...sampai ofis tak tahan terus amik mc...but this week and next week banyak keje pulak so i cant afford to take mc...must suck it up and hadap jelaa...penghapus dosa2 kecil...

i still haven't pack for our hospital stay yet...and ada few things lagi yang nak kena beli...bilik nak confinement pun belum kemas...tunggu my colleague pass her old babycot this weekend, nak kena beli mattress, bedsheet, some toilettries and new towels, nak basuh baju2 lama baby abang kakak dia dulu, nak gather barang2 berpantang; bengkung, tungku, set bersalin from my sister, mostly pakai apa ada jelaa...dah anak ke3 nih kita recycle jer, takyah membazir...but still ada jugak beli sesikit baju baby...takkanla semua 2nd hand...kesian dia...

kali nih plan nyer nak berpantang di rumah sendiri...will upah kakak neighbour my makcu to take care us from morning till afternoon then cikgu will take over...kids macam biasa hantar rumah makcu...maybe dalam 2 weeks pastu cikgu dah cuti sekolah seminggu...lagipun usually by 3rd, 4th weeks aku dah ok dah nak handle sendiri...cuma masa awal2 tuh jer susah nak bangun duduk so need someone siapkan baby mandi, siapkan mandian aku, masak lauk pantang and thats it...belum decide lagi nak bagi berapa since aku takkan berurut dulu...tapi kakak tuh memang pandai urut...selalu gak berurut dengan dia...anak2 aku pun berurut dengan dia kalau apa2...the kids so far pun macam takde perasaan lagi especially mikhail...now that dia obses with ultraman, guess what became his punching bag? yup...must alert bila dia meluru laju jer...ariana on the other hand excited jugaklaa...she likes to feel the baby's movement...dialaa yang rajin panggil2 baby dalam perut...oklaa...panjang pulak membebel harini...mengantuk sebenarnya tadi...now dah celik, bolehlaa plan nak lunch apa jap lagi...nyummmm

GDM, MGTT, BSP, adoyaiii

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Just got back from GDM (Gestational Diabetes Mellitus) Class at HKL...basically its diabetes during pregnancy...my 2nd MGTT (or pregnant mommies call it ujian minum air gula) tak lepas...normal blood sugar rate would be below 7.8, my result was 8.6 and categorized as impaired tolerance...huhuhu...i thought it was just sliiiiightly high kot...masa 1st MGTT ok jer...i think it must be coz its the fasting month...eating schedule pun tak sama, we tend to eat more than we should when breaking fast...adoi, bulan puasa kot...terbayang2 kuih2 loyang, air2 berwarna warni...huwaaa...im a sweet tooth, life without desserts feels incomplete gitu...kalau pegi bazaar pun mata meliar tengok kuih2 manis, kuih2 pedas nih makan jugak but usually bukan pilih sendirilaa...kuih kaswi, seri muka, bingka ubi, koci, abuk2 sagu, akok, all types of pengat and bubur manis...arghhh...masa bulan puasa nihlaa its like heaven for me...now, buhbyelaa until the baby born...takpe, mesti kuatkan hati demi baby...mommy sanggup (sayang, please help me when im lost!!!)

But, the class was fun tho...we had a very funny nurse and dietician...best jer borak2 macam dah kenal lama...no stress at all...she gives lots of information regarding breastfeeding, delivery, GDM, etc...she said last weeks class was empty, kali nih ramai pulak...well, like i said...fasting month, bazaar, yummy desserts? hehehe...next week i need to do BSP pulak...that is to have blood test 4 times in a day to monitor my blood sugar level before and after meal...means hajat nak puasa penuh tak kesampaianlaa...doing BSP takleh puasa :( so next week, i really hope my BSP result will be cantik and no need to repeat again...pray for me too yer...

skali harung

Assalamualaikum :)

rindunyer...rindunyer kat blog...hari2 bukak blog sendiri sebab all my favourite bloglist kat sini, senang...tapi germ tengok tajuk blog sendiri balik2 check up kat KKIA...padahal dah 2-3 kali check up lepas tu...amik darah kiri kanan lengan, minum air gula...well, the same old thing...ni next month kena minum air gula lagi...pelik sketlaa sebab setahu aku sepanjang pregnancy cuma sekali jer selalunyer...and result haritu pun ok jer...faktor umur kah? luckily im not the type yang tak boleh telan ubat...cuma tak disiplin jer...and penakut jarum...tiap kali nak cucuk be at hujung jari, lengan, bahu, punggung mesti pesan berkali2 kat nurse...slow2 yer...jarum paling halus yer...hahaha...most of my frens cakap rela kena cucuk dari minum air gula...being a sweet tooth, takde hallaa...cuma sekarang dapat cawan besar...gulp....jenuh gak nak habiskan...

in a month that i didnt post anything banyak jugak benda nak citer...but i delayed it from time to time coz i have problem transferring the pics from my hp to pc...xsyioklaa citer takde gambar kan...hp lama rosak maka hp baru nih macam xreti lagi camna...went to few samsung shop semua macam blur...dia kata shud be detected once cucuk jer cable usb tuh...hmm...whats wrong ntah...so, our company had annual grand dinner on 24th April. nothing much...sama jer every year...foodwise agak hampa even it is 6 course meal...entertainment by our own staff but they make it as a competition...tema superstar but i only wore something borrowed from my mom...malas aih nak tempah2 lagi2 perut memboyot nih, rugi pulak...

we also have a small BBQ family gathering to celebrate my fil's birthday (i include husband's name on the cake sebab tak celebrate apapun lagi...hahaha...cheapskate wife-but the cake i laa yang beli) ayah cried while give his speech...sebak pulak rasa...he said he wud really love to do this kinda gathering more often...he said not to quarrel among siblings and in laws, kejar ibadah sementara muda dan kuat and take care of each other...hmm...ada sapa2 terasa ker? hehehe...sempat jugak buat pajeri mangga idaman while we at melaka...

then d next weekend tuh mak ajak datang rumah lunch...rupanya semua my siblings ada except finalaa...sedapnya makan pecel lele and itik salai masak lemak...sambal tomato kak hos buat tuh...perghhh...ada 1 cupcake kecik dalam fridge so kitorang cucuk lilin and amik gambar for seth yusuf (my nephew) 1st birthday...sian dia...birthday dia x celebrate pun...xsempatlaa...jadilaa ada gambar buat kenangan...and then fatin spoiled me by bought me a box of cinnabon roll...mmm...sedapnya...masa mikhail dulu ngidam, sampai sudah xdapat...coz cinnabon kat klcc tutup and we dunno how to get it elsewhere...rupanya ada kat One Utama...betapa lamanya tak pegi sana...kali nih awal21 craving dah dapat...baby said tq ciktin!!

i also get to ordered mangga asam boi from my school senior...dia yang buat ariana's 3rd birthday cake dulu...now ramai pulak order mangga dari dia...tengok dia selalu post kat fb terliur2 padahal im not jeruk kinda person...she used all premium quality...mangga pun besar2, kulit limau, limau nipis, serbuk asam, asam boi and cili api...besides mangga there's also epal, kedondong and nanas...pm her at sue dz at fb kalau nak k...

last weekend pulak my sil who are 6mo pregnant datang KL sebab aku nak bawak dia pegi mommy baby expo at Midvalley...pepagi kul 9am dah keluar...pegi balik naik lrt+cab jer...i even bought a shopping troli coz i foresee a very heavy shopping bag with lotsa things...Alhamdulillah, mostly dah beli...tinggal yang besar2 jer...baju tak beli sangat coz nanti pakai abang/kakak punya jelaa...

hmmm...what else eh? oh, last friday ada small teacher's day celebration at ariana's school...they get to wear casual clothes, we bought some tit bits and some gifts for the teachers...from the pics/videos they send in the whatsapp group, the kids are having a blast...i also got to do some spring clean last weekend...sort the kids toys, yang mana rosak, dah xmain aku buang/put aside nak bagi kat bebudak sudan kat sini...then sort ikut jenis...ntah brape lamalaa dapat bertahan tuh...buat masa nih dah 4 hari masih bertahan...we'll see...hehehe

so, until i resolve my hp issue, kita bebel2 jelaa...nanti bila dah dapat upload gambar, kita upload semua skali harung k...jangan pening sudah...kalau pening klik X at the top right corner jer...btw, its for our memories je pun...till then...muah3

check up at KKIA

Assalamualaikum :)

yesterday i went to KKIA (Klinik Kesihatan Ibu dan Anak - its a government service) for my 1st checkup there...before this from 6weeks to 18 weeks i went to an O&G specialist at Poliklinik Kotaraya for "special treatment" since i have multiple miscarriage history before...for both my pregnancy with Ariana and Mikhail from the moment i know im pregnant, we (well, actually im the only one tangung sakit) will be given injection every 2 weeks along with some pills (ventolin then duphaston) to strengen the womb...that rutin will continued until im at 16 weeks...after finishing all the dose, i will continue my check ups at KKIA at 2nd trimester (for ariana i never went to KKIA) then only continue my final trimester at Al-Islam since we have made up our mind to deliver there...

i like having checkups at KKIA for the main reason that they went through thorough checking for every session...i've waited for 2 hours...and i'm only the 3rd person...this time they add more things to check like HIV test and breast lump checking and hearing the baby's heartbeat...dulu time mikhail in 2012 takde pun...the 1 to 1 session took my 1 hour time but its ok coz i get to ask a lot of question and they explain it in details...that explains the long wait...hahaha...plus its only RM1 for the fee...murah sangat kan...this time at Poliklinik Kotaraya, i didnt take the injections, only duphaston pills...for every checkups i was charged over RM200 inclusive of the dr's consultation...2 times the dr was not in coz he have emergency case at KPJ Tawakal (he also a panel there) and still i was charged almost RM200...mahal giler tau ubat tuh...and my company dont cover any maternity medical cost...i think for my next one (ecewah, laju benar nak next one...yang nih pun belum keluar lagi...) i will just go straight to KKIA for checkups and deliver at Al Islam (coz i can choose female dr)

the only cons are the time management and they only give you time slips...if only boleh mintak MC...byk cuti nak kena pakai for checkups weekdays nih...hmmm...and my next appointment will be next week...nak kena minum air gula and amik darah coz my father side ada history diabetes...memikirkan nak amik darah tu....alahai...lemah lututlaa...i saw a lot of new mommies siap accompany by their spouses...so sweet...walaupun no use pun coz when you go in to see the nurse, bukan boleh masuk skali...but sebagai tanda ingatan and morale support oklaa...hahaha...ayat jeles...

isu semasa

Assalamualaikum :)

Alhamdulillah, Mikhail dah sembuh...demam dia lama jugak dalam 3-4 hari but after that batuk selsema pun terus baik...cuma ariana still on off batuk...went twice to her follow up at KPJ Tawakkal, the 1st time cikgu bawak, kena sedut gas...cikgu said becoz she never done it, she thought it wud be painful therefore scream squirmed and cried padahal takde apapun...luckily the 2nd follow up, dr declare her lungs are clear...jumpa dr pun 2 minute jer...tunggunyer berjam2...sampai my appointment with my gynea pun terpaksa cancel...

i have discharge from my gynea kat Poliklinik Kotaraya simply becoz i only needed to take Duphaston, that is medication to strengthen the womb until 18w of pregnancy...and now i will start my check ups at KKIA...kat sana lebih detail and thorough...tiap kali check up kena check darah *gulppp*...huwaa.. memikirkan nak kena amik darah nanti...especially yang kat lengan tuh...adoiii...my husband said i worried too much...eleh, dia tak kena bolehlaa cakap...baru hospitalize sekali dah eksyen...pfffttt...i said the least he cud do for me is just keep quiet...and listen to my worries...nothing he said will make me feel better...hahahaha...punyala takuttt...

and i planned to take the baby later check up at KKIA jugak coz like i said, its detail and thorough...time ariana check up KKIA...cantik jer rekod dia...berat, panjang, ukur lilit kepala, progress, minum apa, etc...time mikhail we decided to bring to normal GP...few different clinic pulak tuh...yang mana dan jer...and cuma ada rekod injection jelaa...rekod lain xde...dahlaa harituh buku tuh hilang...when we get the new 1, there's this 1 clinic taknak re-record injection apa diorang dah bagi...susahlaa, lecehlaa, in other word, MALAS!!! dahlaa rongak buku tuh...i dont know macamana nanti bila mamat tuh nak start sekolah...takut clinic tuh dah tak simpan rekod last 3 years jer...hmmm...

i manage to do some vacuuming and mopping this week...selain laundry few rounds...melipat jer tidak...hahaha...dapat tips baru mop guna air panas...puas hati bila pijak lantai rasa licin bersih dan berkilat2...i do it at my own pace of cos...mana boleh laju2 dah...senak dan semput eventho baru nak masuk 5months...rumah bersih, wangi tapi still tak kemas...nak tunjuk sini pun tak sampai hati...mainan sepah2, kain tak berlipat still atas sofa berlonggok mintak disimpan...nanti2lah yer...itu kita buat later...ada lagi things to do in my list...nak audit balik mainan2 tuh semua...yang mana rosak, puzzle tak cukup pieces, yang dah teruk sangat nak buang...nak re-arrange d toys by box...seminggu keluarkan 1 box jer...hahaha...goodlucklaa alin with that...then nak organize baju2 lama the kids...yang mana dah tak muat, nak simpan...yang mana nak bagi baby pakai nak asingkan untuk dibasuh...will only buy few new clothes jerlaa for baby...toksah membazir...lagipun baju2 bebudak nih elok2 lagi...we'll see samada banyak pakai baju ariana or mikhail...but my instinct rasa...hmmm...hehehe...

oh, my mak dah balik last saturday...tak jadi balik next week, boring katanya kat sana...hahaha...yelaa, hujan emas di negeri orang...kalau duk rumah jer, rumah orang pulak tuh memanglaa mati kutu...hehehe...she bought few souvenir for us...i got Micheal Kors handbag, mikhail dapat sleepwear, ariana dapat backpack and frozen panties and cikgu dapat chocolate...oh, and we get some fridge magnet as well...tgh borak2 semalam suddenly ariana said nak balik london mummy...ewahhh, sejak bila kampung kat london tuh? hehehe...mak kata kumpul duit, nanti aunty fina konvo, leh pegi...hmmm...banyak nak kumpul nih...

the long hiatus, of being unwell

Assalamualaikum :)

waa...lama betul tak update nih...dekat sebulan...in the meantime macam2 happen...currently me and my husband are not feeling well...yesterday after coughing like a mad woman, i went to the clinic upstairs and took mc...my husband took mc today...kesian dia semalam kena bawak students pergi padang from 8-5 untuk acara MSSSM...dengan panas membahang, dengan kepala dia pening, flu and cough, bape kali dia muntah2...harini mc, rehatlaa betul2...besok until friday kena bawak lagi students ke sana...

punyala kepala kitorang ting tong semalam dek kerana ubat and tak sihat, we slept with our door unlock all the way dari grill, solex, pintu kayu semua tak kunci...even the house key still hanging at the door...Alhamdulillah sebbaik takde apa2 jadi...bahaya sungguh...dahlaa aku tertido kat ruang tamu with mikhail sampai pagi...dengan tertido atas karpet takde bantal, selimut and sliding door wide open, masuk angin embun...this morning dah sakit2 badan...tekak pahit kepala miong telan ubat byk sangat...padahal cough jer tapi sampai 5 jenis ubat doktor bagi...plus ubat ehem2 lagi...

haa...alang2 tuh nak share berita gembira...im expecting again...almost nearing the end of my 1st trimester...kali nih memang totally different with my previous pregnancy...i request to have only the strenghten womb pill, not the every 2 weeks jab...pastu tenaga kurang banyak sangat...dah lebih sebulan tak makan properly...tak lalu...tak larat tuh tahap nak baring jer...nak mandi, makan pun tak larat...luckily my husband boleh harap sangat...dialaa yang masak nasi, goreng ikan and suap the kids...layan diorang and put them to sleep...on weekend he would vakum and mop the house, help me with the laundry, mandi and siapkan the kids...sampai aku plak rasa bersalah sebab macam pemalas sangat...but of cos keje lelaki, tang mengelap habuk, kemas2, organize tuh memang dia tak sentuhlaa...but still bersyukur dia banyak tolong kat rumah...whenever i have the energy, i would cook his favourite dish...apalagi kalau bukan saaaamballl...and ikan goreng...sonang sangat tuh...

cakk!!!

 

seriously, i hope after 1st trimester nih i gain my ownself back...rimas dah mata nih tgk sepah2...kain tak berlipat, dapur tak organize...even groceries pun dalam plastik tepi dinding lagi...and i want to cook again...i mean cook real dish...and nak baking balik...ariana been asking to bake brownies or cupcakes but i said nantilaa...nak tgk tepung pun xlalu...and we need to re arrange the furniture in the bedrooms sebab lepas nih nak kena train the kids to sleep in their own bed...dunno how im gonna do that coz until now, mikhail still latch on me to sleep...haiz...and he would wake up at least 2-3 times at night...and he dunwan bottle at night...acaner tuh? during the day boleh lagi distract dia dengan cartoon and other activities...must.wean.off.ASAP...lagipun tak elok for me and the baby...i always pray Allah would ease our process to wean off mikhail while keep me and the baby safe...

please pray for me too ya...thanks, muahhsss

the last entry

salam semua. now sudah masuk dinihari n im typing this from my hospital bed at Al Islam. next entry will be from me as a mother of 2. InsyaAllah... nope, aku bukan in labor but in less than 10 hours i'll be delivering baby mikhail thru c-sec. yep, u heard that right. frust sikit bila dapat tau since last monday's checkup. dr cakap baby already over 3.5kg and still not engaged. jalan pun tak bukak lagi eventho jumaat nih dah nak masuk 40 weeks. kalau tunggu lagi, takut bb lagi besar n end up cser jugak. kalaulaa aku tau kena cser, baikla aku schedule terus masa aku admitted last week. at least mikhail dapat tarikh 20th sama cam kakak yana. kan?

eh, aku ada citer ke yang aku masuk wad on last monday (18th june) sebab tetiba aku rasa contraction kuat every 8-9 minutes. sebbaik cikgu memang cuti coz saturday before that sekolah dia ada sukan. masa tuh pukul 4am n cikgu baru habis tgk euro2012 match apa ntah. member baru plan baik punya nak sambung tido skali aku keluar bilik muka dah kerut2. kesian tgk dia ngantuk, aku suruh dia tido dulu. kul 6 lebih aku siap2 baru kejut dia balik. lepas hantar yana ke makcik aku, sampai hospital dekat pukul 8. diorang buat ctg, ve, masuk drip segala mak nenekla. contraction ada n heartbeat bb tak berapa cantik everytime lepas contraction tapi jalan tak bukak walau 1cm pun. lepas 2 botol air masuk, aku dah tak rasa dah contraction tuh. so, dr tahan just to monitor bb. dr said it could probably caused by urine infection. senang citer kencing kotorla. n aku plak kurang minum air. so selasa tuh lepas dr dah check semua ok, bb pun dah ceria sebab no more contractions, aku di discaj dengan bil RM1015. baby tak keluar lagi duit dah susut. nice.

n now bila dapat tau kena cser, lagilaa lari bajet. nampaknya aqeqah terpaksa ditunda n raya bersederhana jelaa. duit raya semua kena cut half, boleh??!! hehehe...ok, back to my current condition. so, daripada hari isnin appointment dgn dr tuh, aku resah, gelisah, emosi, menung, tak lalu makan (eh, yeke?) takleh tido (yang ni iye sebab mak aku marah kul 3 pg aku still main game kat fon)...aku punya frust tuh taktau nak gambarkan macamana. mgkin aku terlalu mengharap n tak prepare langsung untuk dengar berita macam nih. what makes me frust are it means that after this memang aku tak boleh nak cuba bersalin normal dah. and plan aku nak anak ramai pun limited. dr siap tanya aku plan nak anak brapa org. well, aku suka family besar, mestila nak anak ramai. 

tapi aku sedar, macamana hebat pun plan kita, plan Allah jugak yang menjadi. Dia yang menentukannya. aku patut bersyukur sebab aku dapat sepasang dah. yang paling aku tak suka bila membayangkan segala prosedur sebelum cser tuh. PALING tak best bila nurse nak masukkan catether. aku lagi rela cucuk kat tangan masuk drip daripada yang itu. isyhhh....then of cos, the pain. they said 2nd time cser lebih sakit. adoiyainyer pun. sapa yang kata bersalin operate tuh takleh amik kira (i've heard this before) meh sini aku toreh seinci pun jadila kat perut tuh. tgk sakit ke tak. inikan pulak sejengkal. ok, tgk. kan dah emosi balik. 

but i have such a wonderful people around me yang selalu bagi kata2 sokongan n doakan yang terbaik untuk aku. sayang diorang/korang. n now aku lebih tenang but still menanti penuh debaran untuk menyambut kedatangan mikhail. barang semua dah beli/prepare for confinement and even for raya knowing that lepas nih memang takde masa dah. cuma tinggal baju kurung yana kaler mint green susah nak carik. takpe, itu nanti kita sub kat orang lain carikkan. confinement area dah siap kat rmh mak, rumah dah kemas, baju dah siap basuh/lipat, yana's whereabouts dah schedule. cuma how ariana would except his little brother jer still in thought. tadi pun lepas hantar aku kat hospital, dia dah siap salam, cium peluk aku. tapi pas masuk je keta n realize that mummy is not following, cikgu kata terus dia melalak panggil mummy! mummy! sampai muntah dalam keta. olo3, cian anak mummy. takpe, besok boleh jumpa mummy lagi but with mikhail outside the tummy!

menunggu hari

approaching 38 weeks this week. actually becoz i did my checkup at few different places, i got 2 EDD. my 1st gynea- Dr Rahman that monitor me since my early trimester said my EDD is on 18th june which is next monday! but when i started my checkup at Al Islam since my 6th months pregnancy, Dr Ros give different EDD on 29th june based on the ultrasound. but i've read somewhere that the accuracy of the EDD by ultrasound is only applicable if the ultrasound was done earlier that is on the 1st trimester. so, i'll just assume my actual EDD is on 18th.

actually sejak aku balik dari kenduri adik ipar last 2 weeks, aku dah mula rasa contractions yang agak kuat dari biasa. maybe sebab workloads. asek balik lewat jer that week sampai ada 1 hari tuh aku ingat betul2 dah nak bersalin dah. n memandangkan this is the 1st time i would experience labor pain since dulu ariana was a scheduled c-sec, aku cam confuse n baaaaanyak tanya sana sini how would i know im in labor, macamana nak tau itu contraction betul n bukan braxton hicks n i get various answers. cam kelakar pun ada. coz cara my frens explained it ada banyak version. i've read at hannah johary blog; katanya masa dia suspect she's in labor, she went to the hospital. few times! tired of going back n forth, suddenly she overheard a gynea said to a trainee that kalau patient tuh betul2 in labor, she can't even smile n she did that. testing whether she could smile or not sebelum pergi ke hospital. sudahnya she really go to the hospital at 12am n delivered her beautiful baby at 4am. by 10am dah boleh discharge. cepat!

so, masa aku ingat aku dah nak bersalin tuh, aku mintak cikgu bring along my hospital bag n his things in case i had to be admitted. i even text my gynea asking how would i know im in labor. dr ros suh datang jer n they will check if its a real labor or false alarm. but then when cikgu came pick me up at the office with ariana, macam kesian pulak. dahlaa dah malam, nak angkut ariana pulak so i decided to go back, take a bath, makan dulu then if sakit lagi, i will send ariana to my mom or her babysitter. bila dah sampai rumah, rileks, sakit tuh macam hilang. so, i cancelled going to the hospital. until now, aku still rasa sakit2 especially n much painful bila aku kat ofis. maybe becoz kat ofis duduk jer kot. kat rumah sakit jugak but not regular. n moving around became harder nowadays. bangun nak pergi ke printer/photostate/fax machine pun berkerut2 muka. tidur masih nyenyak as long im in 1 positions jer. tapi bila nak kalih, adoiyainyer pun. mengerang2.

cikgu kejap2 panik tanya dah nak bersalin ker? or he would ask me to guess agak2 bila aku bersalin. this week or next week? maybe he have work to plan ahead. alahai sayang, if only i knew. n becoz this workloads belum habis i cannot go for early leave. syukur i kena submit all this applications by this week not later than thursday, so i could go for mc/early leave afterwards. masa tuh keje dah tak banyak so, takdelaa rasa bersalah sangat tinggalkan keje pada my colleagues. i know they wouldn't mind tapi cam tak syok pulak kan. so, right now im finishing my work, nak buat filing so kalau ada apa2 senang nak carik documents. nak list down all outstanding matters. kemas2 my workstation n i can go for my maternity leave dengan tenang (yeah, right!!) 

this one and that one

now, lets compare my 2 successful pregnancy shall we? pasal apa aku kata successful? coz aku pernah miscarriage 3 kali. yang tu aku dah pernah citer the difference for each of it. ok, lets start.

dulu girl

now boy

dulu aku rileks/rehat/pampered

now kena uruskan yana, lebih berdikari, nak makan apa sila carik sendiri.

dulu small n slow movements

now big and abrupt movements. maybe coz its 2nd baby and ruang uterus dah mengembang.

dulu morning sickness throughout early trimester sampai 4 months

now pun sama ;)

dulu total weight gain 7 kg

now up to 35weeks nih pun baru naik 4 kg.

dulu check up kat klinik Dr Rahman n Al Islam

now check up kat klinik Dr Rahman, Klinik Ibu Anak n Al Islam

dulu scheduled c-section due to breech

now insyaAllah doktor kata boleh normal. Alhamdulillah...

dulu aku kena rashes teruk maybe due to white discharge

now, Alhamdulillah, takde.

dulu cikgu slalu cakap2 ngan baby dalam perut, gosok2

now yana yang slalu borak2, gosok2 perut mummy bila mummy cakap adoi, pujuk adik behave, "cium"adik.

dulu habis aku ngepow baby gadget - stroller, carseat, playpen dari kengkawan (diorang yang tanya nak apa k)

now boleh pakai balik semua tuh. just add few items like deepfreezer, another baby rocker, another baby bathtub. bukan apa, senang nak transit ke babysitter. takyah nak mengangkut macam yana dulu.

dulu semua orang tunggu and excited about the pregnancy. al maklum, cucu sulung belah aku

now semua macam dah slow down, lagi best layan kakak yana yang becok tuh...huhuhu

dulu excited nak shopping dresses, headbands, hairclips, leggings, etc.

now macam tak tau nak beli apa. balik2 mummy shopping rompers, sleepsuits n socks. baby boy, nak beli apa lagi kan?

dulu babah bagi mummy pilih nama Ariana Sofia. 100% idea mummy.

now babah bagi lagi chance pilih nama asalkan bermaksud yang baik dan start with A. thanks yang.

dulu time pregnant mummy busy kat ofis, keje melambak, system testing. tension keje ngan software developer.

now keje tak sebanyak dulu. mummy lebih rileks kat ofis, banyak surf internet n blog. ;P

dulu lain sekarang lain

dahulu sorang skarang berdua

dahlaa, tu jelaa pun yang aku ingat buat masa nih. kalau ada lagi, tambah later k.

approaching 34 weeks

salam isnin y'all...now aku dah masuk 33 weeks. dah mula jalan lambat. sesak nafas, mengah, tapi berat aku dari before pregnant until now baru naik 3 kg. camna? means aku is slimming down while pregnant coz baby is growing well. i loike. last check up kat KKIA hemoglobin level agak rendah. rupanya selama nih aku tak balun iron. padan muka. pilih2 lagi vitamin. aku cuma makan folic acid ngan calcium jer. obimin pun aku tak makan. gedabak sgt. pastu makan vitamin tolak bersama air kopi. memang tak jalanla ubat tuh. tapi hb aku tuh masih di tahap moderate katanya. just makan iron tablet n food yang banyak zatbesi cam hati, bayam, kekacang, etc (silala google eh) and it should be ok.

so sorry gak tak dapat nak upload gambar scan mikhail. format gambar tuh takleh convert lak coz converter takleh install coz cd driver rosak. takpela. aku rasa sama jer kot muka baby2 nih. sayang time ariana dulu takde pulak dr bagi cd. just print jer. itupun sekeping jer. last week manage to develop semua gambar ariana nak letak dalam album. nih kira home projectla. nak carik sticky album, nak letak semua kenangan ariana dari ultrasound printouts, sijil tapak kaki from Al-Islam, gambar dari birth sampai sekarang. tapi aku tak develop semualaa. pilih2 gak. tak syoklaa semua dalam bentuk softcopy jer. dapat flip2 album macam dedulu gak yang syiok. 

this month boleh kata every weekend schedule aku pack. ada kenduri arwah, aqiqah, wedding to attend. tuh tak kira ngan wedding adik ipar sendiri tuh. 27hb aku daftar antenatal class plak. cikgu kata macam baru anak pertama plak nak gi kelas bagai. ahh, i is cuak. nak pegi jugak. (eh, cam pantun pulak :P)tokcik aku pi umrah pun tarikh yang sama. memang masaklaa mak buyung nih nak carik baju, nak sorong perut ke sana sini. aku perasan kalau aku lasak2 sangat, perut aku macam mengeras n menegang. takut terberanak awal jer coz my instinct dapat rasa this baby will not be 40 weeks in here. apa2 pun aku harap semuanya berjalan lancar. kesian lak kat cikgu kalau aku bersalin sebelum kenduri adik dia. mesti dia serba salah nak kejarkan yang mana. like masa wedding aku kat belah cikgu dulu, kesian adik ipar aku sorang2 ke hulu ke hilir. sorang abang dia dah memang sanding skali, sorang lagi abang dia takde coz bini dia betul2 bersalin malam sebelum kenduri tuh, sorang lagi adiknya tgh xm kat UUM. dengan tak cukup kaki tangan tu jugaklaa henfon sampai 2 bijik hilang kat tangan sedara sendiri (ni bukan tuduh, ada bukti). by 2.30pm aku dah salin t shirt ngan suar jeans nak tolong apa2 yang patut. sempoi kan? hehehe

next check up 16hb nih dan seterusnya dengan Al-Islam sahaja coz aku dah bagitau nurse KKIA aku nak bersalin sana. so, buku pink aku pun diorang dah right off. pasnih takyah tunggu 3-4 jam untuk check up dah. kalau lama sangat leh mintak mc. hehehe. cuma bayar jelaa kan. tinggal sebulan lebih nak due nih banyak benda aku nak tanya. camna nak tau nak bersalin? contractions tuh rasa camna? kalau sakit kat melaka, sempat tak aku balik kl kalau nak bersalin kat kl gak? aku rasa cuak masa mengandungkan ariana dulu tak sama cam sekarang. memang kali nih lain sungguh. oh, nanti aku ingat kalau sempat nak buat entry differences carrying these 2 babies laa. ash, u mengandung anak pompuan ngan anak lelaki memang lain ker?

ku ingatkan panas hingga ke petang

Alhamdulillah, pagi nih belum pun sampai ofis dah dapat sms ada sarapan free atas meja. orang belanja. nasi lemak sotong, apam kukus n karipap. nasi lemak beli kat area rumah dia kataya. sedap tapi sayangnya lidah aku ulserlaa pulak. dah 2 hari dah. maka makan sambil pejam2 mata bukan sebab sedap jer tapi sambil menahan sakit pun sama. tengok cermin, mak aih...patutlaa nak bercakap pun sakit rupanya besar ulser tuh. yelaa, sekarang nih musim panas kan? baju sidai bawah bumbung pun boleh kering dalam sehari.

kalau kat rumah aku mandi 3-4 kali sehari. nak tido kul 12am tuh mandi skali lagi. tapi takla beria2. setakat siram segayung dua buat sejukkan badan jer. ariana kalau dia berak kul 10pm-11pm pun alang2 nak cebok, aku siram dia skali dua...siang pun makcik aku mandikan 3 kali. tido nyenyak lepas tuh. semalam pun aku mc, sakit kepala since isnin petang. dah memboyot nih senang gaklaa nak dapat mc. kalau tak, doktor tuh boleh plak taknak bagi sebab katanya aku keje ofis je kot. bukan keje berat. ek eh doktor nih. aku ban klinik ko kang. tapi semalam dia tak banyak cakap. ok ok jer. hehehe.

tapi kat rumah pun bukan berehat sangat. lagipun appointment doktor kat KKIA yang aku memula ingat nak cancel tuh aku pegi gak. dah alang2 mc kan. tu pun sejam stgh gak baru setel. next week appointment ngan nurse pulak kat tempat sama. haiz, kan senang kalau buat hari yang sama terus. biasalaa pompuan nih kalau duk rumah tuh yang banyak keje dari ofis. masa tulaa nak buat semua keje yang tertangguh. nak lipat segunung kain, nak laundry sementara panas, nak kemas lelebih sket. kalau anak ada, keje tak jadi. kita mengemas, dia pun nak "mengemas" gak...kita masak, masa tulaa dia nak bergayut kat kaki mintak itu ini. kalau dia senyap jer duk depan pun kena gak jenguk2. takleh biar lebih 5 minit. bahaya ada dimana2 kan. hatta dalam rumah sendiri pun. yepp, memang aku gitu. seriau duk baca berita sana sini. kena berjaga2. susah nak dapat si jendul tuh wei...

semalam gak banyak plan tak menjadi. ingat ada masa tulaa nak gi buat home projek. nak carik album, nak pilih gambar2 ariana, gi cuci then susun dalam album. nanti adik dia keluar pun nak buat gitu. selama nih gambar semua dalam laptop jer. tak syiok pulak. pastu ingat nak gi pasar malam beli apam balik idaman dari last week skali petang hujan lebat pulak, semuanya tinggal angan2 jelaa. petang duk rumah makcik aku sampai malam, lepak borak ngan opah aku jelaa. opah aku kiut je tau. dia bising2 coz aku still bawak keta, naik lrt. berkerut2 muka dia macam nak nangis. habis tuh, nak buat camna opah? masing2 keje kan. lainlaa opah dulu duk rumah jer. bersalin pun kat rumah gak. :P

and baby A is a....*drum roll*

yday i was on leave. got doc's appointment for 3D scan. and to spend some time with mi familia on hub's bday. nothing fancy, just had lunch at manhattan fish market then straight to Al-Islam. but yang tak best is when this lil fella won't cooperate. dia tunduk ke bawah pulak. only got to see the side of the face. agak chubby, hidung bulat, mulut kecik (definitely tak ikut mummy), dahi pun macam kakak yana dia. cuma mata n rambut yang tak dapat nak tengok coz the image was not that good. but i suspect rambut dia lebat tak macam kakak yana coz this pregnancy aku kerap rasa nak terkencing. relevan ker?

oh, and as promise, i will tell you the gender of my baby. maybe ramai (the people around me) yang dah tau. but for my blogger frens, my baby is a BOY!!! yup ash. kita sama. hehehe. the previous 3 ultrasound pun doc dah kata boy. so, masa shopping kat mami & baby fair dulu dah amik 2-3 helai baju baby boy. tapi masa awal2 pregnant dulu pun memang dah ada instinct rasa macam boy. Alhamdulillah, dah dapat sepasang. but actually boy or girl mana2 pun sama jer. baru 2nd baby kot. excited jugak. and this baby boy adalah sangat aktif. i feel the movement macam tsunami dalam perut nih. BIG movements unlike kakak yana dulu. maybe jugak sebab this is 2nd baby, so ruang tuh besar, syoklaa dia buat somersault kat dalam nih.

i really wanna upload his 3D image tapi harini lupa bawak cablelaa pulak. so sorry. nanti bila ada kesempatan kita wat WW entry n put his pic k. oh, nama pun dah ada. its baby A Mikhail. A nyer belum finalize coz we have 3 different beautiful A names to choose. maybe bila dah tengok muka n personality dia, baru leh pilih. currently yana panggil adik or mikhail jer. just like cerita ariana mikhail yang aku suka sangat tuh...hehehe...

p/s : dalam bersuka ria tengok gambar baby, ada yang berduka. my frens mansor n his wife azelina just lost their beautiful twin girls at 29 weeks in the womb. forced birth yesterday afternoon and sudah selamat dikebumikan lepas isyak malam tadi. Al-fatihah buat bidadari2 syurga nur adriana dan nur afrina. menunggu ibu dan ayah di pintu syurga bila tiba waktunya...

being a preggers

as at today i am 29 weeks pregnant. dah masuk 3rd trimester. only a couple of months then i'm a mother of 2. :) setakat nih dah 5 kali aku pregnant. cuma rezeki nak ada anak baru 2 kali ini. aku tak menyesal gugur 3 kali. dah ketentuan Allah, mungkin ini cara membersih dosa2 aku. 3 kali gugur, 3 cara yang berlainan. bleeding yang amat menyakitkan, bleeding yang tak sakit, janin mengecil tanpa bleeding, semuanya dihandle pun dengan cara yang berlainan. dnc di GH, complete abortion without dnc (tak suka perkataan abortion) n dnc di private hospital. kalau ada apa2 nak tanya, dah boleh jadi pakar dah kot aku nih? hehehe...

successful pregnancy juga aku harapkan kelainan. kalau dulu ariana lahir thru c-sec kerana breech. maka kali nih aku berharap dapat merasai pengalaman bersalin normal pulak. but still, i dunno what to expect or how to handle nanti coz it'll be my 1st time. aku ingat nak pegi antenatal class tapi cikgu kata tak perlu. hmmm...how to convince him that we might need all those knowledge n info during labor nanti? walaupun ini anak kedua or maybe anak ke-5 pun we can never under estimate the power of labor kan? macam2 situasi boleh berlaku kan? aku nih memang macam nih...bukan nak sangat fikir bukan2 tapi aku lebih yakin if i'm prepared. orang kata kalau duk sebut yang tak elok (macam dulu aku slalu tanya doc macamana kalau cser, last2 betul2 cser) nanti dapat.

bagi aku itu semua ketentuan dan rezeki masing2. bukannya aku sebut, nak operate patplohpat kali ke apa. sama macam memberitahu berita gembira. orang tua2 tak bagi bagitau pregnant sebelum reach 4 bulan. takut tak jadi, gugur. kalau dah takde rezeki, ko senyap pun takde jugak. bukan kena canang ke apa tapi kalau dah orang tanya, jawab jelaa yang betul. ko elak2 kata takde, skali betul takde haa camna? samalaa macam nak kawin, nak tunang, etc. mengumpat dan fitnah boleh pulak sampai within few seconds padahal benda tuh laa sepatutnya takleh dihebahkan. kena selidik betul2 dulu, tanya empunya badan dulu patutnya.

macam aku nih memang takde can nak sorok2 pun. (eh, tadi kata taknak sorok?) maksud aku, nak surprise2 nih memang takla. by 2 months perut aku dah macam 4 bulan dah. orang tanya, aku jawab jelaa iye. tapi ramai gak bebudak kat building ofis aku nih yang mulut insurans mahal agaknya tak agak2 cakap asal nampak aku jer, pregnant. asal muka aku jer pregnant. tapi anak baru sorang. eh, kenalaa pulak aku explain memang aku pregnant sesajer tapi rezeki nak ber anak tuh belum ada. pastu oohhh, ok paham. pastu bila perut makin membesar nih asiklaa tanya bila nak due. kengkadang tuh aku rasa segan nak jawab. tanya banyak2 kali nak bagi hadiah ker? hehehe

actually aku nak citer pasal being a pregger tapi dah melalut ke lain pulak. aku suka pregnant sebab rasa macam dunia nih bagi perhatian extra kat aku. people are being extra friendly with you. selalu menerima sedekah dalam pelbagai bentuk. senyum. naik lrt, dapat duduk. beratur nak bayar/masuk toilet dapat potong Q (diberi ye), beli apa2, makananla especially dapat benda free/extra/diskaun. even harituh ada minah arab nih ntah datang dari mana tetiba datang usap2 perut aku. ntah apa dia cakap. hopefully dia doakan aku. dapat sedekah doa. best kan?

but being a preggers is not all about yang best2 ajer. physically nyer penat, sakit, cuma bila ada benda2 kecik yang positive happen around us, yang negative tuh semuanya tetiba macam dissappear. lupa. bukan senang nak bergerak with extra 10 kg around your belly. cer korang ikat sekampit beras kat pinggang. takyah 9 bulanla, 9 minit jer cukup. jalan2 sikit, dah jerih. pastu try pulak tido terlentang, mengiring n tukar posisi dari kiri ke kanan. kalau tak mengah, tak sah. tambah lagi kalau ada toddler tolong tepuk2, baring atas perut boyot nih. adik2 beradik buli mummy eh. semputs tau. duduk tegak jer pun kengkadang boleh semput sebab baby somersault kat dalam. entah organ apa yang dia langgar pun tak tau. paru2 ke usus kot. tetiba senak jer.

by 3rd trimester cramp kaki, asik nak terkencing padahal tank ada 2 sudu jer. tapi rasa nak terkencing tuh macam nak keluar kemain banyak. nak bangun, duduk, batuk, bersin pun otot stretch. sakit. nak angkat berat (anak lerr tuh, bukan angkat lemari pun) dah rasa semacam. pastu dengan hormon haywire kejap2 nak marah, kejap nak nangis. tengok iklan touching sket dah meleleh. hek eleh. tak rock langsung. kerja rumah, handle anak still kena buat. tambahan bila ada benda yang kita nak tak dapat dipenuhi. nak makan eskrem magnum, neslo, air kelapa? sila carik sendiri yer. nak window shopping? sila amik kunci keta, start enjin n drive sendiri yer. oh, jangan lupa bawak purse sendiri jugak. (lain macam jer alin nih, mulalaa nak emo tuh).

so, to all the men out there (i doubt pulak ada ker men yang baca blog aku nih?) tak kisahlaa...anak2 mummy yang men nanti ker...sila appreciate your wife lebih2 lagi while they are pregnant. coz its not easy. memang kengkadang wife nih nampak tough. tgh boyot2 menyapu, pastu boleh pulak mop rumah. lap2 kabinet, lipat baju sambil tengok sinetron. sihat jer. pastu tetiba lembik pulak. pura2 ke apa? pompuan nih keras2 kerak nasi. tough kat luar tapi kat dalam sayu jer. kalau wife ada mintak2 apa2 yang masih munasabah tuh, cubalaa penuhi. tolong2 buat keje rumah ker. macamana uolls bersusah payah nak dapatkan barang idaman, camtuh jugaklaa patutnya effort untuk dapatkan permintaan wife. kengkadang dia tak mintak tapi dia bagi hint2 tuh silala beri perhatian. wife pun kenala bertimbang rasa. janganla gedik mintak benda2 mengarut. tengah2 malam buta pulak tuh. macamana diorang nak gi carik. carik bala adalaa.

whatever it is i love being pregnant coz it means that i'm the closest to my baby. aku jer dapat rasa macamana dia bergerak2 dalam perut. orang lain rasa luar perut jelaa eh. itu pun kalau dia bagi tendangan kuasa lapanbelas. kalau yang mild2 tuh macam specially dedicated for beloved mummy only. this month ada 3 appointment. start from this week, every week. haiz, cuti lagi. camnilaa kalau checkup kat 2 tempat. tapi next week is the 3D scan. dulu masa wat ultrasound pun doc cakap anak awak pandai posing. mesti gambar 3D nanti cantik. we'll see. can't wait!!

p/s : my bff, nonie is in labor. bak kata mak dia penantian itu satu penyeksaan. hehe. tapi the reward at the end is priceless. maybe besok dah boleh tengok dia kat hospital with the new family member. yeay, aku nak dapat anak buah!!!

random pic re baby A

my baby bum at 24 weeks. i know, its hugeeeeee...

met dynas at maternity fair @ mv. *bought something at her booth too* my oh my, she's pwetty.

the haul at maternity fair. beddings, mandian herba, tungku baby, pil asi, bottles, gift set (for someone else, of cos. its cheaper) a few clothes, yada yada yada...

another buy at manjaku baby store. tak tahan comel sangat, i bought for each gender. 1 for my bf who is having a diff baby gender from mine. can you guess which one is mine? oh, also bought few sleepsuits (ariana never had chance to wear it coz mummy busy listening to people. rugi coz baby in sleepsuits are just too cute) and rompers set from mothercare. itu jelaa yang mahal sikit pun. yang lain biase2 ajer udah. baby kan cepat membesar.

apa yang penting, kerjasama...

hola mi amor!!! seronok weh cuti 4 hari...eventhough takdela buat apa sangat pun. menghabiskan duit jer...orang tgh feeling kayo, ginilaa jadinya...duit belum dalam tangan, dah gigil2 nak pegi shopping mall...aku dah perasan dah sindrom nih slalu menyerang bila nak dekat2 announce increment n bon...jangan takde sudah, haa kalau tak, lepas tuh melopongla kau nak menyimpan balik...

last weekend aku telah berjaya mendapatkan lebih separuh dari barang2 dalam list to buy aku. tapii yang siotnya tubing set untuk pump spectra 3 aku tuh makan rm70!!! mahal tuh...memang siot tullaa sapa yang kebas tuh...dulu aku beli dia bagi extra tubing set tuh rm20 ke rm30 ntah tak ingat sebab beli skali ngan pump. now kalau beli asing memang harga tuh katanya...apa nak buat, dah nak guna kena gaklaa beli...selain barang2 dalam list tuh aku ada gak beli benda2 tambahan (as expected laa kan) almaklum bila dah kat sana baru nampak. alang2 belilaa skali. baju baby yang tak plan pun beli gak sikit sebab tak tahan comel sangat. 3 pasang jer pun. other than that beli sikit toilettries ariana yang memang murah. liquid cleanser for bottles tuh 2 pek refill cuma rm22 jer. which selalunya 1 pek rm17.90. aku beli 1 set jer coz barang banyak tak larat nak bawak. penuh trolley n stroller. yang buat nampak penuh sebab aku beli nursing pillow tuh.

oh, we bump into a few couples from our uni. funny n strange when we see ourselves with the lil ones. hehe. i also manage to meet up with my best bud nonie sekejap. itu pun tak dapat lama2 coz masing2 kejar masa. lepas jer habis meround (lantakla ayat broken eh) terus carik tempat makan. dah kebulur bebenor dah. makan kat SR jer. dah tak kuasa nak survey2 carik tempat makan. janji kenyang. boleh pulak aku tertinggal diapers ariana dalam keta. sudahnya masa makan pun kelam kabut coz ariana dah mengamuk2 tak selesa n ngantuk. nasibla dapat meja paling hujung nun kat dapur. habis disepah2kannya nasik kat lantai. hulur piring kek, terus senyap. habis makan, cikgu dukung kat bahu tak sampai seminit dah tido. terus kitorang gerak balik, tukar pampers pun dalam keta jer. tak sempat nak round2 MV. memang semata2 pegi exhibition jer. habis gakla dalam 600++. gambar2 barang aku beli nanti2la aku upload eh.

on sunday pulak memang tak kemana2. we spent our day doing housechores and the rest lazing around in d house. masak pun kueyteow goreng jer ulang sampai malam. dasar bini pemalas. nasibla dapat husband yang tak cerewet. petang pulak hujan. 3-3 beranak tido. ahhh...heaven. on monday n tuesday memang aku dah apply cuti coz rabu (today) alan pergi kelantan bestfren dia kawin. at 1st plan aku n yana pun ikut but then doc tak advise untuk aku travel jauh2. so, aku amik cuti tuh nak spend masa dengan mi familialaa konon biar ariana tak rasa sangat babahnya takde nanti. takde makna ok. isnin tuh aktiviti penuh berulang ke klinik ajer. dah aku pun belum decide nak bersalin mana, aku pegi jelaa checkup kat dua2.

pagi kul 7.30 aku pegi klinik ibu anak. kul 11am baru settle. itupun interview jer dulu. semalam sambung lagi jumpa doc pulak. rabu minggu depan kena cuti lagi nak buat blood test pulak. Almaklum, klinik gomen kan buat thorough checkup. harusla complete n makan masa. kat Al-Islam pegi isnin petang jer. just untuk scan n cukupkan syarat checkup kat sana in case nak bersalin kat sana nanti. selain faktor masa, yang lain tuh kira oklaa...jimat pun iye coz all the test buat kat gomen, Al-Islam copy result jer. scan kat private, gomen copy result scan. sangat bekerjasama kan...hehehe...aku setelkan skali hal2 bank apa semua. petang selasa baru free sikit. tapi pegi pavi jer carik baju baby n hadiah kawin. kan aku kata tadi sindrom asek nak shopping sedang melanda. lagi2 bila dah confirm gender baby. yahoo. seronok, tak perlu nak teka2, pikir2 nak beli baju apa. oh, n gud news is dr. ros kata 90% chances uri naik atas balik. so, kemungkinan nak bersalin normal tuh ada. double yahoo. and tak perlu continue ubat ventolin n utrogestan tuh dah. cukupla dengan vitamin biasa jer. triple yahoo. lagipun aku memang liat makan ubat plus ubat tuh mahalll...jimat lagi di situ. nice.

Gomen or Prebet?

aku tgh dalam dilemma nih. dilemma yang sama masa 1st pregnancy dulu tapi lebih tension. pasal nak pilih beranak mana. kan aku dah dismiss checkup dengan Dr. Rahman so sepatutnya aku kena pegi next checkup minggu depan. tapi taktau samada nak pergi private kat Al-Islam macam dulu atau nak try checkup kat hospital gomen. dulu mind dengan hati aku memang tertutup habis dengan hospital gomen nih becoz of my previous experience masa gugur 1st time dulu.

sebelum apa2, aku nak mengaku dulu yang aku nih cembeng. means aku mudah menangis. takleh sakit sikit, penat sikit, terasa sikit mudah jer aku melalak dan trauma. tapi nak pujuk balik senang jer. just bagi kata2 perangsang, aku ok dah. :P tu pasal aku dapat husband yang tak naik suara tapi bila dia marah (diamkan diri) aku dah meleleh2 air mata. kengkadang aku jer yang over. dia tak peluk cium pun aku nak sedih2. eh, melalut pulak.

ok, so aku ada borak2 ngan few frens yang bersalin kat gomen and private hospitals. kata diorang sayang duit bayar ribu2 kat private padahal sakitnya sama. duit tuh boleh buat benda lain untuk baby gak. beli barang best2 ker, buat kenduri aqiqah meriah sikit ker, pergi bercuti ker. ok, aku mula terfikir2 betul jugak kan. duit Bon yang bakal aku dapat nanti mungkin tak banyak mana. mungkin cukup2 bayar bil hospital n buat bayar hutang kredit kad sikit. tang mana nak pegi jalan2 bercuti semua kan? nak harap cikgu dapat Bon, memang takla kan. gaji bulan2 tulaa nak buat belanja hari2. TAPI aku jugak amat mementingkan pendirian aku yang teramat2 malu taknak doktor lelaki masa bersalin. eh, malu aih kena seluk, kena jenguk kat bawah nun. alangkan Dr. Ros Al-Islam dulu buat pap smear kat aku pun aku duk terkepit2, inikan pulak doktor lelaki. eh, laki aku pun tak tengok down there tau.

pengalaman aku bersalin kat Al-Islam dulu sangat best. dari doktor, keselesaan, layanan, makan, nurse, nursery, dah nama pun private takde apalaa nak komplen. cuma sediakan duit jelaa. and aku stay sana 5 hari until aku sendiri rasa dah cukup kuat untuk bergerak ke sana sini. coz mak aku takleh nak attend aku 24/7 kalau kat rumah. masa berpantang dulu pun dia mandikan baby, siap masak, then keluar buat hal dia laa. kata "datin", banyakla urusan dia. nasib baik masa tuh baby sorang. itupun dia yang duk bancuh formula bagi kat ariana time dia jaga. adoiyai. so, kali nih kalau c-sec lagi kat gomen 3 hari dah discaj, ngan ariana yang melasak, camna aku nak survive jaga baby sensorang agaknya? 2nd n 3rd day still seksa nak bangun duduk ok. kenapa aku kata c-sec? uri aku masih dibawah. not at critical stage but still, i have to be prepared for the worst walau aku nak gak merasa bersalin normal pulak kali nih.

kalau hospital gomen, aku rasa aku prefer hospital selayang dari HKL despite that dulu aku pernah dengar kes baby terkerat jari masa nurse nak potong bandage. adoi, ngeri. n aku tak expect nurse n doc duk kelebet aku 24/7. cuma aku NAK sangat kalau boleh doktor perempuan SAHAJA yang attend aku. n no doktor pelatih lelaki yang kejap2 nak belajar seluk/jenguk. n baby aku dijaga dengan baik kat nursery n husband boleh teman aku masa bersalin. itu jer. banyak ke request aku nih? agak2 boleh tak diorang provide?

one more, bila aku buat comparison nih kengkadang aku rasa macam aku a little bit selfish and pilih kasih. selfish sebab aku kesian gak kat cikgu nak kena bayar ribu2 (walaupun sharing) sedangkan kalau gomen, dah confirm free. dulu masa ariana, semuanya tip top. duklaa belai perut setiap hari. cikgu pun rajin layan bercakap dari dalam perut lagi. tapi kali nih aku siap consider nak jimat2 duit, baby A pun duk dengar aku jerit kat kakak yana jer. nak nyanyi2 kat dia pun cam tak sempat. cikgu plak balik tusyen dah penat. setakat gosok2 perut jelaa nak amik hati bila aku tanya tak sapa baby ke harini? tapi bukanla bermakna aku tak sayang dia or this is unplanned pregnancy. NO. aku memang nak baby lagi. and baby A arrive at the right time. cuma dari segi environment jelaa yang berbeza kot. in case u're reading this sayang, mummy sayang semua anak2 mummy k.

so, korang camna plak buat pilihan? please dun say tepuk dada tanya selera coz i dun have the right answer as this is only my 2nd baby to be delivered. i need solid reason WHY I HAVE TO CHOOSE xxx. things like that. please2 help me. ur experiences may give me an idea on how to make decision, fast!

p/s : mujur ada kakak yana duk "tepuk2 adik" suruh tido n nyanyikan lagu Lailahaillallah... :)

Baby A shopping list

sabtu nih dah plan nak pegi maternity and baby fair kat midvalley. just what i need. memang dah lama tunggu fair camnih. macam2 nak beli. from my previous experience, fair macam nih lebih fokus kepada breastfeeding tools, nursing attire, diapers, baby foods, bottles, toilettries, beddings, insurans/stemcells services and show/contests. mostly from local stores or online biz. not so much on baby gear, baby clothes. but fret not coz there's always jusco nearby to search for such things. besides, for this 2nd baby, most probably baby A will need just a few new pair of clothes. kakak yana punya ada, kita jangan membazir. kalau lain gender, kita tambah sikit2 sudah.

i want to look for spectra3 tubing set since mine ada orang dah sorok/buang. i left my machine and pump in a bag in our store room at the office. where my other colleagues also pump there. but i suspect somebody that has nothing to do with breastfeeding yang buang/sorok. my office only has less than 15 staff. and ada 2 puak. so, if i exclude my clan, there's only 2 person that are potential to be the suspect. takpe, mudah-mudahan dia aniaya aku nih, murah rezeki baby A dengan susu yang melimpah ruah. amiin.

other than that nak carik nursing pillow, a few feeding bottles, nipples for 1st year breastflow bottles, baby sling, breastpads, new bedding set, diapers and formula for ariana (if its on sale), ice cube tray with lids, barut, bathtub (the old ones already at the bbsitter's) and other things that is essentials that i missed out in my current list (sure ada punya). baby gear tak payahla. pakai jer apa ada. rocker, stroller, playpen, carseat memang beli yang unisex colour so no problem there. tengok2 balik list nih banyak jugak benda baru nak beli (read : kopak jugak). kalau tak cukup budget, i might beli yang penting2 dulu. cannot splurge so much as we are still be going for checkups and the most important, the hospital bills itself. pheww...hopefully murah rezeki hujung bulan nih...

mengidam

pagi tadi cikgu hantar gi keje. dari semalam dia offer. aku ok jer. mana2 pun boleh. naik lrt pun senang, naik keta sampai depan opis lagi senang ye dak? tapi silap timing terlewat sikit maka stuck kat traffic jam. u turn few times untuk try jalan alternatif. akhirnya masuk duke, tembus ayer jerneh, lalu celah mana ntah keluar kat semarak. manage to reach d ofis by 9am. oklaa. lewat 15 minit jewww. dalam keta on hotfm. topik harini pasal ibu mengandung mengidam bukan2. macam2la karenah ibu2 mengandung nih kan? ada yang makan sokabar, makan ubat gegat, kiwi kasut. eh, tak ke racun bendalah tuh semua? pelik akula. kalau makanan betul takpela jugak. ada jugak mengidam makanan tapi spesifik ya hamat. nak rojak beli kat mamak naik BESKAL. naik motor, kat restoran semua takmo. nak milo ais beli kat kedai cina. eh, macam2laa. siap nangis2 kalau tak dapat.

aku? Alhamdulillah takde mengidam pelik2. kalau tak dapat pun setakat delay jerla. takde lak nak meraung2 ke hapa. ada makan, takde sudah. jangan anak selepas nih dia buat perangai lak. dalam keta tuh selamba jer aku perli cikgu. "sib baik diorang tak berlakikan sayang kan? kalau tak meraungla ko kat situ. hahaha" cikgu jeling jer pastu senyum2 cakap "ek eh". memang aku niat perli+bergurau sebab kengkadang sentap gak tak dapat nak bermanja mengada2 mintak itu ini. kalau ada, dia beli. kalau leceh, lain kali jelaa eh. alasan dia itu semua psikologi. bukan mati pun. boleyh?!!! sabo jelaa