Misi sebelum ramadhan

last week on 19th March, i receive this picture in fb and ig...and then dang!!! i still need to ganti puasa another 27 days!!! sempat ker nih? so now im fasting since yesterday cuba untuk mengganti sebanyak yang boleh sementara boleh...nanti "bestfriend" datang melawat, another week wasted pulak...haa, sapa2 yang belum ganti tuh jom puasa...cuaca pun just nice...not too hot, not raining everyday...

how i got so much to replace? well, 20 days masa bersalinkan mikhail...that is on 2012...pastu i start menyusukan dia...and i have tried puasa tapi memang longlai sangat...siap nak pitam2...then x sempat ganti, 2013 another 10 days due to women conditionla apalagi kan...after that bekalan susu mula berkurang...im afraid that if i fast, susu makin kurang...but since now i want to slowly wean mikhail off from breastfeeding, i have lessen the time of pumping milk...just once during the day and non on holidays...

so, now i need to pay 20 days of fidyah, and ganti puasa for 30 days...yesterday i just started to fast again after long pause...and i had migrain...after isya' telan actifast 2 bijik terus tido sampai sahur...(of course ada jugak bangun2 menyusu mikhail)... today at 10am pulak, muka mula pucat and my hands shaking kelaparan...itupun dah bersahur tuh...terus cepat2 tutup mata tido jap...luckily boss pun cuti, yippaa...dapat pejam setgh jam, hilang kebulur...hehehe...dugaan sungguh...after today, inshaaAllah another 25 days to go...

Ya Allah, permudahkan urusan alin untuk beribadat kepadamu...amiin