Helloooo friday...
i have a mixed up feeling today...mostly because i'll be seeing my party girls tomorrow...yayyy!!!when i mean mixed up feeling, i MEAN mixed up! i feel excited, happy (of coslaa kan), anxious, worried, sad...well more to worry than the other feeling...because i'm planning to leave my little one at my mom's...those who are around me know what i'm talking about...it seems ages since the last time ariana met her "nenda"...not because she is far, but more to internal emotional family affair...well, i wont go into the details here but just wanna let you know that everything is back to OK now...and she had been giving signals that she wanna take care of her cucu for few hours weekly...
i dont wanna ariana to get shocked being left behind with "stranger to her eye" and cried the whole day...it'll break my heart even to see her cry for me while i bathe...so, last nite after i n hubs eat our dinner, fetch ariana n off we go to my mom's...we lepak2 for 2 hours and after a while she seems ok with my mom and my youngest sister...so macam ada can kena tinggal nanti...we will do that again tonite but tonite we will try to leave her for an hour while we go to wangsa walk...just so that ariana will feel more familiar to them before tomorrow...kalau tak ok, i kena bawak dialaa...cik, tolong urut budak kenit nih skali yee...hehehe
another thing is her diet...ariana kan breastfeeding...full on weekend because whatever i pump on friday will be keep for monday...tak cukup stok nak bagi for saturday...i could give her the formula tapi kalau dia taknak macamana?and after alan balik, he will fetch ariana...i never leave ariana with alan for more than an hour before this...i wonder how will he read her body languange...nak susu ker?nak tido ker?poo poo ker? or just ngada2?haiz...nilaa akibat tak pernah berenggang ngan anak...susah hati memikirkan...
my original plan was to bring ariana along with me since my aunt who take care ariana is outta town and alan has this replacement school day for deepavali...he will only be back at 2pm if he is lucky...but then my girlfriend are planning for girly2 day out...so we decide on spa for full body pampering..fuhh...dah lama giler nak sangat buat tapi takde masa n takde geng...so haruslaa take this opportunity kan?n camna nak buat full body massage sambil take care ariana?3 jam tuh tau? and the appoinment is on 12pm...sian lak kat dia kot nak tido ker, nak susu ker, kang melalak kang terganggu lak orang2 yang nak rilex tuh...
huh...just the thought of doing something nice for myself pun dah memeningkan kepala...i guess i just have to trust others and let it be...besides, how bad could it be rite?
i have a mixed up feeling today...mostly because i'll be seeing my party girls tomorrow...yayyy!!!when i mean mixed up feeling, i MEAN mixed up! i feel excited, happy (of coslaa kan), anxious, worried, sad...well more to worry than the other feeling...because i'm planning to leave my little one at my mom's...those who are around me know what i'm talking about...it seems ages since the last time ariana met her "nenda"...not because she is far, but more to internal emotional family affair...well, i wont go into the details here but just wanna let you know that everything is back to OK now...and she had been giving signals that she wanna take care of her cucu for few hours weekly...
i dont wanna ariana to get shocked being left behind with "stranger to her eye" and cried the whole day...it'll break my heart even to see her cry for me while i bathe...so, last nite after i n hubs eat our dinner, fetch ariana n off we go to my mom's...we lepak2 for 2 hours and after a while she seems ok with my mom and my youngest sister...so macam ada can kena tinggal nanti...we will do that again tonite but tonite we will try to leave her for an hour while we go to wangsa walk...just so that ariana will feel more familiar to them before tomorrow...kalau tak ok, i kena bawak dialaa...cik, tolong urut budak kenit nih skali yee...hehehe
another thing is her diet...ariana kan breastfeeding...full on weekend because whatever i pump on friday will be keep for monday...tak cukup stok nak bagi for saturday...i could give her the formula tapi kalau dia taknak macamana?and after alan balik, he will fetch ariana...i never leave ariana with alan for more than an hour before this...i wonder how will he read her body languange...nak susu ker?nak tido ker?poo poo ker? or just ngada2?haiz...nilaa akibat tak pernah berenggang ngan anak...susah hati memikirkan...
my original plan was to bring ariana along with me since my aunt who take care ariana is outta town and alan has this replacement school day for deepavali...he will only be back at 2pm if he is lucky...but then my girlfriend are planning for girly2 day out...so we decide on spa for full body pampering..fuhh...dah lama giler nak sangat buat tapi takde masa n takde geng...so haruslaa take this opportunity kan?n camna nak buat full body massage sambil take care ariana?3 jam tuh tau? and the appoinment is on 12pm...sian lak kat dia kot nak tido ker, nak susu ker, kang melalak kang terganggu lak orang2 yang nak rilex tuh...
huh...just the thought of doing something nice for myself pun dah memeningkan kepala...i guess i just have to trust others and let it be...besides, how bad could it be rite?
2 comments:
sabar jer..akak paham perasaan you!!
it turn out ariana ok jer...
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